if you lived here, you'd be home by now

or could be if you'd acted on the post to scrappy last month, by the woman running code pink. some women are just luckier than others, i guess. since we passed this place on the way home from albany, naturally pictures had to be taken. and so i share them with you.

also pix are up from a jaunt to point isabel. more notes on all the recent gallavanting soon...

getting my goat

while i'm waiting for various files to open...and incidentally i love XMLSpy....

today my little goat, aka pearl, decided to get into something she shouldn't have. and by today, i mean at approximately 3am this morning. and by something she shouldn't have, i really can't elaborate because i have no idea what she ate. whatever it was, it didn't agree with her and she promptly sent it back to the bedroom floor, and across our bed.

yes, she was sleeping in our bed. our girl is more than a little spoiled. and as far as we could tell, the bedroom was clear of anything remotely bad for her, and/or items like medications were safely out of her reach.

so about 315 this morning i woke up to what sounded like a whine or whimper. to be honest i wasn't sure if it was pearl, or min talking in her sleep. i nudged min - what's up? she mumbled or something and i heard it again. not min! i started feeling around for pearl on the bed and she was nowhere.

pearl! where are you? i heard her dog tags clanging from across the room, heading towards me. on goes the light. she's drooling like a leaky faucet. good grief. in addition to her shaking and other sharing of fluids, after a few minutes we got dressed and headed to adobe. well, after cleaning her real quick (quite a mess).

and of course, by the time we got there and seen by the doctor, she was totally fine. mouth dry as a bone, no shaking (well, other than a bit of nervousness at first), no fever, heart rate fine, got perky and everything. we watched her another 15 before leaving... with a very cheap bill. doesn't cost much when they don't really do anything. :-p

we got back home around 5 and though tired, i couldn't sleep yet. wanted to watch her a bit longer to make sure she was alright. started laundry for offending bed items. then i got hungry. tried one snack...waited...not enough. ok pearl's alright, but now i need real food. damn this mac&cheese craving!

fine. i'm awake for the day. made my cheesy goodness, min went to bed, and i got ready for the day. and pearl, she got reacquainted with her kennel. and she will stay friends with it every night from now on.

the wandering minstrel

my mind - and body - they have been on such a journey this last week.

thursday night we went to a Career Exploration Workshop at The Women's Building in sf. i instigated this trek because, as i've mentioned before, i'm not really grooving on my current gig. i had hoped that this class would help point me in a new direction.

well, it didn't. it's not really the fault of the class (limited scope due to funding - ah, the joys of nonprofits), BUT it did have some good food for thought, and got me thinking about the things that are important to me in a work environment, as well as some ideas on areas to explore to help me find That Thing That I Want To Do.

so yes, that was good. but what was great was there was another lesbian couple in the class. as class was breaking up, min goes: does anyone know a good place for dinner around here? and i said: oh, i already know a good place. we started downstairs and then one of the dykes - sandy, as it turns out - said: are you sure you want to turn down a good restaurant recommendation? i laughed and said good point! so she and her partner sara told us about two places. neither of them sounded good for then, but it was good to know. we were dropping some paperwork at the car, and the other couple was across the street, and min said: should we ask them to dinner?

so in a nutshell: we went to dinner with them, plus a friend of theirs visiting from australia, and had a GREAT time. so great that we all agreed to go out again sometime. pretty nice result for a class that didn't help much!

friday i had my offsite at lake berryessa/spanish flat resort. i must say, before looking up that link, i had no idea how much it cost to rent a boat. wow. but: what a blast. i posted some pics but naturally there are no pics of me bouncing, hovering, and skidding across the water since it's impossible to take a picture of yourself when both hands are grabbing, with all their might, to straps on a gigantic innertube.

and, i had no idea hanging onto a giant innertube could be so tiring and yield so many bruises. but as AG said (yes, AG. more on that later), "they're bruises of honor." i couldn't agree more. especially since, of all the people who rode that damn innertube, i was the *only* one who did NOT go flying off it! that's right - i did better than all those tall guys with the bulging arm muscles.

of course the flip side is, i rode that innertube to death, and it paid me back with the bruises, a good case of wind/sunburn and a (mild) knock upside the head. had a headache for three days straight...it's almost gone now. even so, i'd do it all again. sooo much fun!

oh and yes i attempted to wakeboard. later i heard that almost no one gets up (on the board) the first time. swallowed a bunch of water, got crabby with myself - but i'd try it another time if i had the chance.

also i got to see charissa that morning (but not at the offsite, wah). other than "hi", the first thing she said to me was "you're so tiny!"

what? ohhh. weight loss. for those of you who haven't seen me for a while, i am far from tiny, believe me. but since the last time she saw me (march?) i had dropped about 40 pounds. plus i had clothes on that *fit*. anyway, she asked me what my secret was and i said: stress, a little exercise, a little eating less, and stress. did i mention stress? so, not really a diet i recommend, but there are worse ways to lose weight, as i saw quite clearly with min. still, it was really nice to get the compliment so if you're out there reading, charissa - thanks! :-)

rest of the weekend was pretty mellow. m's birthday was saturday...all we did was get takeout from buca di beppos, because she has been very ill lately. it's just the usual, but she's been worse the last month or so. i seriously think she may be headed for a hospital stay soon - another obstruction/impaction. without going into details, let's just say all signs point to this, but i hope i'm wrong and she starts feeling a bit better soon.

ok...AG. so, for reasons i will not elaborate on but were TOTALLY innocent and well-intentioned (think: apology), i wrote to AG last week. we ended up having some good dialogue (note: i did not use dialogue as a verb) and, i think, left things in a much better place.

and they were so much better that of course, i found myself thinking about her too much again. however i (think i) did a better job redirecting that than i have in the past, and i started to feel better by sunday. the main trick i have learned, if i may say, is to simply not respond. compelling? absolutely. compulsory? absolutely not. so let's put that energy into something more productive! yeah!

in case you didn't know, i am not a cheerleader. but, sometimes i think everyone needs one, at least a little bit.

ok that pretty much wraps it, and good, because this post is long enough. :-p

incidentally

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oh, i am SO tired

but: i had a great day. more later!

loving the light

Originally uploaded by heatherama.

i don't know why, i guess it's the reds, greens, and misty light, but i really love this shot. on saturday i was itching to go oustide, so we went to the thornewood preserve just west of woodside. it was supposed to be a gentle hike...and i guess it mostly was, except for all the areas with slide damage. min didn't make it all the way, but i was determined to make it to the lake. which admittedly was more of a glorified pond. still, i was happy to have made the trek and get a few nice shots.

today we went and saw world trade center which was pretty mediocre overall. loud. it did give a good sense of some people's experience that day, but it was a little slow. went to greek later in mountain view - cafe baklava? - on castro. yum.

and if you've heard about the infamous Pearl Dancing, here is your chance to see the SHORT (but still 5mb) version. on a normal day she probably goes twice as long and is twice as bouncy. :-D

fascination wimmin

Originally uploaded by heatherama.

as we all know, there are some fascinating wimmin out there. so of course, when i saw this tonight, i had to snap a picture. and snap i did, with my snappy new canon! a birthday present which i got to research, pick out and pick up today thanks to a good deal (i was determined to spend under $200) at wolf camera.

after we picked that up, we went out to dinner and then down to the boardwalk to listen to a free concert by john waite. it was pretty packed, and he was good (and loud) so we ambled around, took the sky tram, and otherwise just had a relaxing and wonderful evening.

topped, of course, with a stop at marianne's ice cream on the way out of town. requisite!

ok i think i'm finally off to sleep now. hopefully more adventures this weekend. i am determined to get some video footage (yay! in-camera video!) of pearl doing her famous belly dance. :-D

the haps

since july 29, not even two weeks ago! altho i admit, it's close. let's see...

july 30: we went to wen and tara's engagement party out in the boonies (ripon). before we went though, we took pearl to the house of a Kind Stranger From Bascrappy. m had posted looking for a last-minute place for pearl to get puppysat (i thought she'd be ok at home, but no matter) and a very sweet woman posted saying she had a small chihuahua that would probably looove to play with pearl. we talked on the phone...she offered references but seemed so nice we just went for it.

and that all went just fine, thank you. pearl and the other pup had the Best Time Ever. meantime we also had a very very good time at tara's parents' place. beyoootiful garden/backyard. great food, excellent company, most of which we didn't know, but everyone was super friendly.

on the way home we stopped in pleasanton? amidst an explosion of superstores, anyway, and had a meal and did a bit of shopping. had to buy some new bras because half of my old ones were too big! annoying but of course, good.

july 31: i think we went to the women's group at the defrank. kinda nice. i even talked! a lot! but not as much as this one woman...wow.

aug 2: we tried to go to the PWG meeting but we'd had a fight on the way up, and ended up leaving halfway through for more processing. yay. all i feel like saying about all that is, it had to do with this stupid poly stuff, and theoretically the particular subtopic at hand was all sorted out, but i don't know if i really believe it. i think the next time it comes up will be the true test.

and no i have not resigned myself to anything. i really don't know where she and i will end up eventually, but for now, for sure it's still just her and i.

aug 5/6: i think we just stayed home - cleaned and did more medical paperwork, for which we have an endless amount. a lot of what we're doing now involves scrilla payback! which is a great motivator. and the cleaning, well, that is its own motivator too. looking over and not seeing piles of cwap really *is* nice.

aug 7: women's group again. was fine but i didn't feel chatty for some reason. like that EVER happens! that's ok though, that same woman i mentioned last time reeeally likes to talk. she does have interesting things to say, but wow.

aug 8: took my bad self to target, to try to return some swimming trunks that i had outgrown (undergrown?) before i even had a chance to wear them! but could NOT return because i didn't have the original credit card anymore (bank just switched me from visa to mc). grr. in the meantime target had also decided to sell off 90% of their swimtrunks and i almost didn't find any! but did at the last minute, and in a smaller size than i expected to have fit me. heh. very nice. was determined, too, because we have an offsite to waterski next week! and i've never been! woo!

other than that, it's just been work, eat, sleep. like normal for most people i guess. and really, i suppose most of this entry is boringly normal and relatively calm. i'm ok with that for now. :-)

lunchtime fun

while i'm waiting for the *fastest*bestest* application of all time, clearwaste, here are some lunchtime observations from this week:

• buck rogers is funny. especially when people say things like "But I can't leave Musicworld!"
  
  it is amazing how, even 26 years ago, jerry orbach still looks old. i also never noticed that buck's robot - twiki! - pulls a road runner (bdeep-bdeep-bdeep) sometimes. but i guess that makes sense since mel blanc did both. :-D
  
• that KITT car is a bonafide wiseass. i heart him. also, why is david hasslehoff so adored (by some)? i don't get it.
  
• a luau salad tastes better under a series of shady trees, with your best girl and puppy by your side. as well as some damn good cake to polish things off.

ok clearwaste isn't done, but i am for now. have a good weekend!

a voyage...of bananas

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30 second voyage

INT. Bubbles' house - early evening.

Bubbles is scanning teevee options for the evening. She comes across a random movie starring valerie harper.

Bubbles thinks to herself, 'valerie harper. isn't that rhoda? and the one with that show where she got replaced by sandy duncan? yeah...sandy duncan...why does that sound familiar?' There is a pause while Bubbles stares at the screen.

"Oh," Bubbles says, and then snickers, because she remembers that earlier in the day, she'd read this:

Aquarius
This week marks the four-year anniversary of your solemn oath to develop a lifestyle that is in no way influenced by Sandy Duncan.

Min, at the computer, and curious why Bubbles is giggling, asks, "What?"

After she stops giggling, the first thing Bubbles says is, "Thanks again for getting me that onion book."

Bubbles then takes Min on the 30 second voyage, she also tells her about the flaming corn dogs and morality for sextuplets. Because that was some good shit too.

take on me

continuing my trend of interspersing a few light posts with lengthier ones, here's an update of What's Been Going On as opposed to the fascinating world of flickr, heat waves and snorting. since my last mammoth update, i have had even more aha!s:

1. yes i said that my fixation on AG was about more than her, that it was about me wanting a richer existence. but, it was also about *her*. i haven't just been missing the possibility of her (or anyone), i've been flat out missing my friendship with AG, such as it was. maybe if i'm good, and lucky, we can get something back.

2. staying busy - and by that, i mean keeping my inbox on the verge of exploding during daytime hours - really is a good pacifier. beats staring at a cursor.

3. getting to know yourself, and even articulate! your feelings better is really quite startling at times. but good. :-)

4. self-doubt and/or self-loathing is an insanely powerful demon that has tortured both min and i for far too long. it's not the kind of thing you can get rid of overnight, but WonderTherapist, B, gave us some excellent tools for dealing with this. now if we can only remember to implement them...

5. last saturday when we saw B, we went to a very tasty dinner in the marina district and then walked along crissy field...watched the sunset over the golden gate. it was so gorgeous outside. the realization? that i am very lucky to be alive, to be there at that moment, with a woman who loves me (who i love as well), and a puppy who bounces everywhere.

6. an aha! moment that also was a duh!: Other People stick in my head because i'm interacting with them - or in some way, they are with me - more than min does. granted, once i get home, usually she's interacting with me quite a lot...but not necessarily.

why is this worthwhile to note? because it makes me feel less guilty about all this stupid musing i do. it's simple physics. more, better interaction with min = less Others because my mind's full with her. now, there's only so much we can do about that, given the situation, but still... it's in progress.

7. and in conclusion: WonderTherapist B, who we've decided to stick with, helped me come to an amazing realization. we were talking about the time in my life when i was cutting and very suicidal - my senior year in HS. she said, why did you do that then versus some other time? what happened?

my parents liked to think that it was because i was angry/whatever about the abuse i'd experienced when i was little. i never really bought that. i mean sure, that's not GOOD, but it wasn't on my mind, either. no, i'd say that far more pressing on my mind was that in the last year or so, my life had become a variation on running on empty. i am not kidding. for brevity's sake, let's just say that we spent some time on the run from the government, because of my dad, and because of both real and (his) imagined conspiracies and paranoias.

so i told B about all this. and she said: it's natural that you would turn to sexual fantasies (which also started around then) as well as the cutting, because it was an outlet that YOU could control. the rest of your world was about life and death, and that responsibility hanging in the balance. it was about control -- your parents controlling you, and internal messages to control yourself because there's probably someone waiting for you to mess up and then you're all dead.

you're jealous, right? right.

with help, i got the cutting stopped. and i knew - really - i would never do anything worse than that. which meant fantasy became my main outlet. i could control it, it was all mine and no one else's. even when everything was "fine", even when it started to cause me pain, it was still inside and therefore safe.

at least, until the last couple of years. that's when i fell in love with someone else, and became almost completely unglued. and that story, well i've talked about that enough. but that was my mind's turning point from safe to destructive. and i have never really been the same since. i'm hoping the difference now, though, is that i'm talking about these things. there will be no more decades of festering - only fortnights are allowed.

ok time for bed. enough analysis for now.

any day that involves snorting is a good day

that's snorting from laughter, mind you.

i just said that to liz and thought it was worth sharing. i hope you all have snort-worthy days!

i don't know about the rest of you

but right now i would very much like to be in alaska, antartica, or have some chunk of an iceberg in this house. 108 degrees (says wunderground) is a bit much, even with AC that's been going for hours and hours.

ok, back to the bedroom (the only tolerably cool room in the house)!

the benefits of a flickr outage

as some of you may have noticed, yesterday flickr died for a while. in the interim they had posted this great contest page, where the winner with the best artwork gets a flickr pro account. if i still had a digital camera i'd have tried too, but meantime, i bring you the pool of contestants and point out my faves so far (i just started looking!):

doggie flickr

fighting fuzzy ball flickr

enjoy!

yummm

tonight i had one of the best dinners ever. definitely in my top 3 for homemade dinners ever. i had:

- sauteed scallops, shrimp, mushrooms, onions, marinated in some sort of soy-type sauce*
- basmati rice
- asparagus with a bit of paprika
- mango relish: mango, black beans, cucumber, bell pepper, tomato, and probably some other things

*i can't be more specific about the sauce because i didn't cook any of this. well, i started the rice. min made it all and it was deeeelectable. d-eeee-lectable, i tell you!

and for dessert a few hours later i had a teensy slice of the german chocolate cheesecake she made me the other day (a thanks for all the help i gave her - and there was a LOT - with the disability paperwork she had to get done pre-interview).

and for the record this is exactly how i gained 10 billion pounds when i first moved in with her. :-p the only reason i'm not gaining weight now is a) i *am* trying to be more conscious about what, or at least how much, i eat, and b) heat makes me nauseous so my appetite is way down. good thing it's summer! and even if i didn't eat much, it was a wonderful way to forget another drudgesome day at work. well, that, a couple kisses from min AND pearl, and a little teevee.

fireworks, angst and death

yes, that headline is the 1 second version of this entire post. :-p anyway, thanks to clearcase and other technology snafus, in addition to my inability to post more often, I bring you an almost-3 week recap!

6.28 exceeded RDA of Angst and Angst-related Secret Blog Posts.

6.30 had a horrible (too vivid) dream about AG. because i was so upset that morning, ended up admitting to min what a shit-ass time i'd been having fighting with myself the last several weeks. how i'd been thinking, wouldn't she really be better off without me? and i really heard her when she said: no. i love you. ALL of you. to which i said: i'm glad you do because i sure don't.

7.1 saw Lake House which wasn't that bad. romance... with a bit of fantasy. had a fight with min, but ended well.

7.3 battled with myself. victor: me! loser: me!

7.4 played a fun bedroom game in the morning. :-D went to oakland to have dinner with some strangers dykes. VERY yummy food! some good conversation. then we walked down to jack london to see the fireworks/listen to music. got separated from the group...but so what. we had a blast AND i won free tickets to some event this winter. handel's messiah singalong i think? put on by whatever symphony was playing at the fireworks. anyway the BEST part about the fireworks is now they have smiley fireworks!! so cool!!! the worst part was, we're never bringing pearl to fireworks again. soooo scared she was. poor thing.

oh and on the way home we got lost in alameda. all the usual exits were blocked off (thanks) and so we ended up in the webster tube...the only good thing i can say about all that is, now we have an oakland map. :-p

7.5 joined more lists in an attempt to stave off Major Boredom and Angst. since there was no bingo(!), saw The Devil Wears Prada which was kinda dumb. had a fight because i was an idiot... and in the end felt very grateful for min.

7.6 another good night, even though min was horribly sick. pondered my lack of angst (for last few days) briefly but then let it go (enjoy the break!).

7.7 saw my gynocologist who said: great that you've lost so much weight. however that's why your periods MHPs have sucked so much ass the last several months. thanks!! ffs. went with min to kubota for dinner. yum. had a really lovely evening, felt very in love/content.

7.8 had another (annoying) dream about AG, which put me in a weird mood all day. to help distract myself, i started taking career tests to figure out What I Might Want To Do If It Isn't This.

7.9 saw wen and tara dance! and kai and several others. andrea - T's sequined outfit is SO worth taking a picture of, and we would have if we'd remembered the camera (doh). we went to the event to a) enjoy it, which we did, and b) see if it was the kind of thing we'd want to take a class for, since wen is teaching one pretty damn cheap next month! we both agreed it wasn't really our deal (i was pretty iffy on it from the getgo) - sorry wen. but you guys looked great!

7.10 we cheated on our therapist B by seeing a new one, A. it was 60% disaster 40% success. dunno if we will go back yet (have another appt with B this saturday), but A did have some good observations about our communication styles.

7.12 nickelback songs should be removed from my playlist. joined more lists in an attempt to stave off Major Boredom and Angst.

7.13 had the great idea (via an idea from therapist A) to have min and i check in with each other each day - use that time to talk about something we appreciate/love about each other as well as share difficult feelings we're having (instead of keeping them in). i also realized that a lot of my missing AG is about friendship, that i need more deep friendships in my life. more people i can hang out, be silly with. and as much as i would like min to fill most of those needs, because of her illness, she can only fill so much. yeah i know this is old territory, but i never connected that to AG quite so much. it actually was comforting, because it made it not just about *her*. which is really good because i've had no indications of her missing me. hopefully soon i can say the same. but on this date (13th) that SO was not true.

7.14 had a very sweet, loving day. at night, had nightmare about my parents. min was great, telling me a story to lull me to sleep, but my dream had included music so..borrowed min's ipod to listen to norah jones (the only podcast i could find with soothing music on there!).

7.15 intense love for min feels reactivated. wrote her love letter. spent a lot of time on disability paperwork.

7.16 my maternal grandfather died. i hadn't seen him for maybe 15 years, and i was ok with that because of all the horrible things my mom told me he'd done to her (thanks). my own experiences with him were ok if stilted. he had been VERY ill the last few months - pretty out of it mentally, blind, etc..and apparently saturday he took a real nosedive. my mom (who, at least to some degree, had forgiven him) said they had peaceful music and candles going much of that day, and that almost all her sibs got to either be there or talk to him on the phone before he died. amazingly she says my grandmother is doing really well. i'm glad my mom can be there for her right now though.

also spent a lot of time on disability paperwork, running errands related to that. had a fight...and later min apologized for all the times she's been...short with me inappropriately. and over the last few years, with her pain putting her frustration threshold so very high by default, there has been a lot of that, so i really appreciated her a) recognizing that and b) apologizing. it's been hard to talk to her about it because of how much stress she's under.

7.17 min filed for disability today. for real! had an interview down at the SSA office and everything. i am so proud of her for finally getting that done. course now we just have to wait for them to deny her (i'm not kidding) and reapply. apparently we should know within 6 months if she gets approved. it's kind of funny, EVERYTHING we've ever read says, nobody ever gets approved the first time. but apparently they totally act like you might. we'll see! and the woman there also told her that even after she gets approved, it'll be 5 months AFTER that until she ever gets any money. there is a 5 mo backlog. wow.

if you made it this far, congrats! your prize, especially if you enjoy arrested development, is to check this out.

ok bye :-)

a mini-update

mini in terms of just covering today and yesterday. :-p luckily it hasn't been tooo bad today. i'll have SuperAngst and then i'll quickly redirect myself, occupy my time some other way.

incidentally min made me a cd yesterday with love songs. some rock even! so sweet. and gave me a little pic of us from a month or two ago, in a little frame. so i have it right here next to me. i am not super jazzed about how i look of course, but it is a good shot of her. and i like having it right there so i can stay focused. oh and also a very sweet love letter.

went to lunch today with Princess I. was good to visit with her! and since she'd read some of my blog, she wanted to talk about all the relationship fun that's been going on for me. she and i had not gotten together in, i don't know, maybe 2 years? at least a year for sure. so we had a lot of ground to cover.

it was good to have that perspective, to try to cover bad (mostly past) to better (recent) and get reminded that things really are getting better over all. we still have SO far to go, but things are in fact progressing.

note: that does not mean that i no longer struggle with:
- emotional fidelity to min (in general)
- a paralyzing ache for AG
- abundant self-hate for the above

quite the opposite. let's just say that i've cried more this year, i suspect, than in my preceding 33.92 years. and look! the year isn't even over yet! i should start a water reclamation facility.

anyway, i get it - things are doing better, but they're still very difficult, and there is a lot of ground that still needs to be covered. that reminds me, a recent entrant to the Things About Me That Are Really Annoying list is: realizing that my boredom threshold is *insanely* high.

now, i always knew i got bored easy. but for the most part i could handle it if i just had *something* to do. but i'll tell you - here in webdev, the spells of having very little to do are much longer than they were in content. and i don't like that. i do find things to keep myself relatively busy (let's hear a cheer for documentation!)...but i don't enjoy them. i need higher caliber distractions. that means blogs, interesting emails, fun-Knee emails, IMs...whatever i can get.

this is mostly when i'm at work, too. otherwise i can find a variety of activities or places to go to for self-entertainment. at any rate, the problem is: i get bored, and then before long i start musing/obsessing on one of the issues listed above. so - not good.

anyway that's it for now. i'm not up for recapping the last two weeks. i'll have to do that later, maybe this weekend. there really has been a lot to cover. :-D

if you're having a shitty day

Toffee Crack will make you forget your troubles, one sip at a time. not that i would know.

so about the last two weeks...

i'm still not going to tell you. maybe tomorrow. it's getting late and my eyes have windburn from my night out. mostly from racing cars.

i've been to MGP before but i didn't do the racing then. tonight i did both the 'go karts' and the 'grand prix' and let me say, there is a WORLD of difference between the two. go kart = fun. grand prix = adrenaline. it could only have been better if it was an actual race (with a winner) rather than me trying to beat my time (and everyone else's) each lap, which i did. :-D

i went tonight (was going to be min and i but she was too sick) because some dyke on bascrappy set up the event. i did actually meet said dyke, and she was very nice, but because i was about 20 minutes late, i lost track of the rest of them by the time i paid (long line). didn't really matter though because i had the best time.

they are having an awesome special in the evenings this summer. if anyone wants to go, gimme holla!